June 18th - Queen of Swords

I got the Queen of Swords upside down today. Swords are always a mental card. Sign of Marriage and Partnership. Balance. Justice. This is one of those cards that suggests that you need to MAKE a commitment. Sometimes we don't make commitment because we don't want to be pinned down, but this card suggests that today making the commitment frees you up and lets you move forward.

I can see this with Jennie and my kids and my business. Sometimes I want to put off making decisions. It's a weird habit. Don't want to be pinned down, but the flow tells me when I need to make a decision and it actually does free me up.

I got this card upside down today, so let's go see what THAT means, shall we? This card is like some kind of female mind. I think it's like the masculine side of a woman. Feminine MIND. She sees through the bullshit. This card reminds me of Jennie a lot. She is like that. But for me, what does it mean? I'm not sure. I feel into it being reversed, and I'm thinking it's like thinking too much. Go to feeling, cut away the bullshit in MY OWN MIND, and go down deep into the darkness and come forth with clarity and power. There is more I don't know yet.

June 16th - Failure & Cruelty

I got the Failure card upside down. It was very relevant and good. I liked it. Jennie go Cruelty.

June 17th, 2010 - Power

I got the POWER card. Jennie got Defeat.

Sun and Bear Dreamer

Today I pulled the Sun card, and Jennie pulled the Magus, Bear Dreamer!!!! AWESOME!

June 14th 2010

Yesterday, Sunday, i got the Prince of Swords upside down... AGAIN. Two in a row. The basic idea is not to think too much. I went for a walking meditation, I did a energy meditation for 30 minutes, I road the bike, Jennie and I meditated on the Hermit, the Fortune, and the Lust Card. It was good. Jennie has blocks, but we really pushed against them. It was gentle, but firm. I liked connecting with her.

This morning I pulled the Victory card. Oh yeah!

Yesterday also read some Sextrology book, Aries Male. Some of it was DEAD ON. Some... just way off and didn't make sense. Then into Virgo female, and again, some described Jennie, some didn't. But Suzzane recommended it and we had a great night reading. We do so much better when we read and touch and talk instead of watch TV.

June 12th

Knight of Swords, upside down

June 11th

I have spread the cards on the table but have not pulled on yet. It's 6:15 PM. Sometimes you pull one at the END of the day to see what kind of day you had! I feel good. It's Friday. I'm still mad. i am still mad. But good mad. Things need to change.

I asked my soul a question: "Soul, reveal to me my true place in life." And change is requested and answered. I'm not sure what, but it ain't necessarily what I'm doing. It's out there. It's powerful and down from my gut.

I pulled cards with Jennie. She got the Hanged Man, upside down. I got the Sorrow card. At the time I didn't feel it made sense. But now it does. I feel sad.