September 30th, 2010 - Thursday - The Empress

That is not a mistake. I pulled the exact same card again the next day. Only this time I pulled it Right Side Up! Since I took up so much of your time yesterday, I'll shorten this one today. The short of it is to learn to love. The sum of the Empress is the feminine flow towards love. Love is just merging with someone/something. Love is becoming one. No one does this better than the Mother energy, and remember, the mother can be so many things, as it represents just a piece of the feminine, which is flow.

Think about an animal on the plains, it is a rodent, and suddenly a snake kills it and eats it. The body of the rodent has merged with the snake. Later the snake dies, and the body of the snake merges with the earth. The earth grows grass, which feeds the next round of rodents. I know... I just saw the Lion King broadway play and so maybe the Circle of Life is on my mind (go see that play if you haven't, it is AMAZING!). But death is a part of the cycle. Around and around we go. We will merge. We ARE already ONE. We ARE LOVE already. We come from the same thing, stuff, etc.

Today, using FEMININE flow, anger, love, caring, nurturing, home, as well as all your other emotions, LOVE. Love and combine feel and be everything.

That was longer than I expected, but who could have anticipated a Lion King Circle of Life reference? Had to be done! Go forth and love!!!

September 29th 2010 - Wednesday - The Empress

Today was the third Trump Card, the Empress. I got it upside down. The quick understanding of this card is this: Look to where you are being defensive or overly protective of your heart. Take a risk and open your heart. The Empress is a great card, it is the ultimate feminine. It will be followed by the Masculine power, the Emperor, in the sequence of the trumps. This is the mother card. The angel of mothers. This is about self love. And love of others. It is merging and bonding, but also waxing and waning. The feminine is a flow, up and down, anger love, hate compassion.

Reversed this shows that there is a part of me that is not being loved. Not feeling loved. Not feeling mothered. It can also mean I am over protected someone ELSE, and not letting them grow.

And this could be exactly what the card means, because my son is 16 and having girl problems right now, and at times I have been overly protective of him in this regard. I have given him tons of advice, and sent him a lot of energy. It could be a place where I decide to let him learn the lesson by himself (as he's obviously just not going to really listen to me). The true Empress will protect her young, those she loves, but not enable them to be wimps. She can go Kali on them and get pissed! (Holy shit do I remember my mother going off on me sometimes, when she thought I was being dumb! Somehow she always came at me with the Empress feel, that of a mother who loved me so much she would kill me for being stupid.)

This is a time to be vulnerable. Try that today. I find more and more as I go through life that I don't necessarily gain anything. Which makes sense, in the end we'll all be dead and have nothing. But in a sense of growth, I've also felt I wanted to grow, to see progress. But more and more I'm just seeing there isn't really any growth either. We just ARE. And if we choose to live each moment as the Empress, the LOVE of the world, then that is great. If we don't, then I guess we are just kind of wasting our time. We are either present with love, or not.

The rest is bullshit. I mean, you have to separate yourself from results. When you can live your life pursuing your deepest purpose and love, while not worrying whether you succeed or fail, laughing at all the mistakes you make along the way, but feeling EVERYTHING, and just loving and doing it... that is where you want to be. For some reason talking about the Empress this morning brought this all up and I share it with you.

September 28th, 2010 - Tuesday - The Emperorer

Hello my friends. You'll notice the last few cards we did differently, which was that I wrote about them AFTER the day was over. This gives you a different perspective of how the card worked in the day. Often, looking at it that way, you see things much differently. Today however, we are here, 6:15 in the morning, doing the card. So I can tell you a little bit about the card, how it might influence my day... but I won't be able to really analyze it until the day is over.

I know what you are thinking. I should post twice. Once in the morning, once at night, and good reader, good friend of mine, that might just be too much to do, so what we will do instead is flip back and forth a while. Sometimes we will do the card before, sometimes we'll write about it at the end of the day, so you get both perspectives.

And of course, it goes without saying, if you weren't clear yet, that you can take the card of the day that I pull as a guidance for your own life. Sometimes when we approach the cards, get a reading, or whatever, we look at them so LONG TERM. Yet the real way to look at them is short term in many aspects, and even DAILY. How are the angels guiding you today? And frankly, there aren't that many people who actually look into guidance from angels and God and the Goddess and the Universe every day. This is a remarkable thing, so you should be applauded if you are on this journey with me!

Okay, so enough about that, you want to know about the Emperor. For me this is the ultimate FATHER card. This is about the patriarch. And the rules of the family. This card definitely tells you it has something to do with your family (and this could be your 'work' family too).

Today however I pulled it upside down. The short reading of that is that I have resentment. I might not be standing up for what I believe.

I'm thinking about that, and now I'm feeling into it, and I'm wondering what that means. Where could I not be standing up for what I believe? And if the angels are telling me this, then they definitely want me to drop my resentments and stand up for what I believe. In fact, what I believe is good, and should be stood up for. This is important. Not just for me silly, but for you too. Today stand up for what you believe in.

And wouldn't it be nice to have an addendum later telling you how it worked out for me? Of course you can always comment on the blog yourself telling us how it turned out for YOU!

September 27, 2010 - Monday - Adjustment

Back to the Trumps! And this card was really great for they day. Jennie pulled the Chariot card and so we were really well paired. Which was for me a busy day working with legal things and numbers and balances, to try to make things work at work financially, and to get my truck out of impound with the insurance agency. Then coming home, and trying to make peace again with Jennie, not just in an adjusted way, but to go deeper and connect. When this cards comes up it can talk about legal stuff, but the core of it if you ask me, professional card interpreter that I certainly am, is that it is about BALANCE. Often negotiated balance. Level 2. You scratch my back I'll scratch yours.

September 26, 2010 - Sunday - Worry

The worry card... I've gotten this before, but not in this series. My Sunday was absolutely reflected by this. While Jennie and I had patched up our fight from Friday night to Saturday day for the party with the friends, and did well today, I still began to feel worry about my work and the financial aspects of it. This plagued me all day long. There were times when I was able to shut it aside, but in the end it really hit me. I was hoping for some intimacy with Jennie, I think I just needed an assuage to the worry, and that didn't come (again!) and so I was even more frustrated. The night ended poorly.

September 25, 2010 - Saturday, Satiety

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This is a great card. One of being totally fulfilled. Which is exactly how the day ended. While Jennie and I fought during the day, I went out for a great bike ride, then a break motorcycle ride, then lunch with my friend, then took the kids to the pool. Though my truck did get pulled over and impounded, I felt fine about it. We had a party that evening with the best of friends, and it was beautiful, and just filled. Long term success. Long term truth. This was some good times with good friends.

September 24, 2010 - Friday - The Devil

The Devil... again.... The card of temptation. Today I will be tempted. Probably by my ego, and man did THIS ever happen! I actually pulled two cards this day and the second card was:

Yes... our ever popular Interference card. No I haven't pulled it yet in this series, but was this card expressive of the day? Yes it was. Not until the very end though. After yesterday's bad day for Jennie, and my intuitive approach to it (which worked so well in assisting her and serving her and God's flow), my mind decided I should get something back. Again I used intuition to guide my day and my evening with Jennie, but she ended up not reciprocating intimacy with me. As I lay in bed contemplating this, I realized it was the interference card. And even knowing it was the interference card, even knowing it was my head going wrong, I was still unable to sleep well as I was filled with great energy and negative thoughts.

September 23, 2010 - The Priestess

I've gotten this card before, and it tells me to follow the Yellow Brick road. In other words, follow your intuition. Today my partner Jennie had a really bad day, and I used a LOT of letting go of my mind and going fully with the intuition to help her, and it really worked. Very little thought, lots of flow, touch, humor, and love.

September 22nd, 2010 - Wednesday - Completion

Completion...

This card can be one of the more simple ones. It basically tells us that there is a completion coming and happening, and a sense of rest and rejuvenation will occur. So today hopefully something will finally come to fruitful end, and you will get a chance to catch your breath. So today be relaxed, fell that rest right NOW. Feel it DEEPLY. One of the lessons of the Tarot is to feel DEEPLY into life. Again and again we live these surface days. Go deep. Feel deep. Feel all. Be Open. So today, FEEL COMPLETE. Yes... yes... hiss the word yesss.....

September 21st, 2010 - Tuesday - RUIN

Good Tuesday morning my friends! As with all sword cards, this card represents the MIND. In the Tarot, the MIND is often the enemy. The Tarot puts more emphasis on feelings, and on intuition, spiritual impressions, and so forth. The mind is the ego, and it is where things go wrong. And today, we are being told, that the mind is going WAY WRONG. WAY WAY WAY. This is ruinous thinking. "You are allowing the mind to create chaos and destruction." Note that word DESTRUCTION. Bad stuff is happening because your mind is out of control. But..."The Mind is NOT THE ANSWER." (Of course it isn't, you knew that already didn't you?) Things are going to break down no matter what. Look at where you are not seeing the reality of the present situation.

This card is interesting, and scary for a lot of people. It is definitely one of the 'death' cards. But remember how we look all this stuff? The Tarot is a map of our universe, and is used by the Angels to GUIDE us in succeeding through life on our missions and journey. This is just one day. And today, we are being told about the possibility of problems coming up. This could be outside stuff, like the oil spill in the gulf, or something happening to us or someone we love or know. It could also be a problem we create in our own minds, that isn't really there.

The real point however is to take this information the angels gave us, and figure out what to do with it. Intuitively. It could be someone else with ruinous thoughts. It could be a political thing, or environmental thing. Whatever it is... how do we deal with it? Well the first clue is to NOT USE OUR MINDS. Don't over think it. Today, do some Yoga. Do some walking and breathing and NOT thinking. Feel your emotions fully today. Get out of your head. Get into your belly. Deep belly breathing.

Another thing to do would be to sit back and consider where are you out of touch with reality? We all get that way. You have to be willing to be wrong here, and examine yourself with your heart and intuition. Your Ego isn't going to help you here. Your ego is going to tell you things are fine and the only way out of this mess is with your BRAIN. Don't trust it. The Ego is LYING.

(Thank you Ego!)

Examine. Stop. Breath. Feel. Think about it, this is good advice EVERY DAY. Right? So use this card as a motivation to stop, breath, examine, feel, and get in touch with your wise wise soul.

September 20th - 2010 - Monday

Yep... this is Friday's card. How about that? Again, a great reminder to look to how we can give and think of others, instead of getting stuck in our own emotoinal needs. Today, we might just feel needy. That is fine . Feel it! Want it! Cry like a baby . Just do it alone. Then come out of that damn closet and go love someone. Give them what YOU most need. Turn the universe on it's end. Really, it is incredible how it works. You want something so bad, so go and GIVE IT AWAY TO OTHERS. If you need appreciation, feel unappreciated, then give appreciation today. Turn the tables. Really do something different. You'll be surprised. REALLY. SERIOUSLY . GIVE IT A TRY.

September 19th, 2010 - Sunday

I pulled this today, and it too is a card we've had before along our journey. Not too recently, but we pulled it. Today it was... UPSIDE DOWN. This card is telling me to get out. Get some space. Go into the wilderness. Get out of your head. Which is great advice most of the time, and even more today. Get out of your head. Do Yoga!

September 18, 2010 - Saturday

We are getting a lot of repeats aren't we? We just got the Fortune card last week, and here it is again! This one I pulled upside down which says that while you WANT change, the timing is a bit off at the moment. Are you heading in the right direction? Sure you are. But just be aware that right now, today, is not the right time. Just bide your time. In other words, dream, but be patient.

September 17th - 2010 - Friday

This card asks you to look to where you want to control others to fulfill your needs. What it's really saying is: "Are you being selfish today? Are you using others to get what YOU want?" I like this card because it is a reminder to definitely look to how you can GIVE your gifts today. You may want to focus on what YOU want, but this card says, hey, look to what others want. And also, remember, it could mean a PERSON you mean today who is selfish. It might not be you, and now you know how to deal with them: With compassion and giving, and strength, not letting them walk over you.

September 16 - 2010

The priestess! Glinda the Good Witch! Follow the Yellow Brick Road. Listen to your intuition and let it catalyze yourself into new awareness. Yesterday it was be quiet, slow down, make no decisions. Today is move with your intuition.

September 15 - Prince of Wands

Today I got this card upside down. So the angels are saying... SLOW DOWN. Look before you leap. Take it easy. Tai Chi. Breathe. Feel into things and come from your gut instead of your head. Slow. Slow. Slow.

Right side up this would mean igniting your ideas and letting the energy of your mind go go go. But in my case today, it is NOT saying go into your mind. But stay in your gut and just move slow. SLOW WAY DOWN TODAY.

September 14 - The Universe

Today I got the Universe card! Completion is at hand. You are to be congratulated. Something is about to begin! Check out that beautiful woman and the four winds and the writhing snake, the serpent has been defeated by the Eve archetype. We left the garden of Eden for a purpose, and now we have completed a part of that purpose.

September 13 - The Priestess

Today I should listen to my intuition and catalyze myself into new awareness. This isn't just listen to your intuition and doing what it tells you. It is using this intuition to catapult you into a new paradigm. Seeing new things. Feeling new things. It might be small, this is after all just a card for the day, but it might be big as well. A whole change in your life. Or a little one. But today, IF I listen to my intuition, I could gain a new awareness. Hence the beginning focus here is to listen to my intuition, relax, and see where it takes me.

September 12 - Failure

This card tells me that today I am feeling fear. Fear of failing. I may feel afraid. It suggests I move forward anyway, and take a risk. Face my fear, and find a way through it all. In many ways I'm not at all sure what this card means for me today. I don't remember feeling much fear today, though I do have a low grade anxiety that I'm not practicing enough, but I'm feeling okay with that, realizing that at times it just is that way. As I was walking I felt out and thought, what if I'm not ready? Or what if I'm not strong enough. And yet the flow of energy, the gut level response told me, oh you are ready. You are strong enough. It's just a matter of habits, discipline. To do it ANYWAY. It is time for life to change. To drop the masquerade. You know who you are so start acting like it.

September 11 - Princess of Cups

This was reversed for me today. Normally it means I want to be taken care of I am dreaming. It kind of means you want the best... but aren't really willing to work for it . But... upside down it means I need to take some time for me. Some alone time. Like the walk I just took. Enjoying being human. I feel this strongly.

September 10 - Knight of Disks

Well I got the Knight of Disks again. I told you I get this a lot. But this time I got it upside down which tells me: I am not doing what I need to get the job done. I am waiting for the world to hand it to me. Intimacy is getting lost. I could be sacrificing intimacy for security, but I'm not working for it either.

I think this has to do with my taxes and my accountant.

Maybe more. Let the angels speak through my body and soul. Be a good man, do what you need to do, and keep connected to your children and Jennie and your higher self (lower self).

September 09 - Change

This moment may not come again. Make a decision and jump or you will miss the opportunity. If you resist change the old reality will be forced to shift in a more painful way.

September 08, 2010 - Princess of Wands

I took the three day weekend off, but I'm back now. Yesterday's card was the Knight of Disks, which is such a solid card for a day. I tend to pull it often. This morning Jennie had a dream that the angels came and told us things we needed to do for our practice. But she couldn't clearly remember what these things were. So we pulled a card each this morning asking what it was the angels were trying to tell us.

I pulled the Princess of Wands: Take the Tiger by the tail. Allow your enthusiasm to create a forward momentum, to be fearless! Do what it takes to get the job done. Kind of an inspirtation go forward. I'm not fully getting it thought, or understanding what the Angels are trying to tell me.

Jennie pulled the Luxury card for the day, and then when asking about the Angels in her dream, she pulled the Indolence card. The Angels told her to SELF GENERATE an emotion. But the indolence tells her she is stuck, and needs to let go of her emotional heaviness and begin healing. So the angels are telling her to self generate emotions that will unstuck her and heal herself. Interesting. What emotions are those?

September 07, 2010 - Knight of Disks

Responsible. Going for your goals in a practical way.

September 03 - Adjustment

Today I may make a legal decision, but whatever I do, I need to made sure I am balanced, and consider the LONG TERM CONSEQUENCES. This probably has to do with upgrading the computer, but it may also have to do with talking with my Dad.

September 02 - Prince of Disks

Today I pulled the Prince of Disks, upside down: I need to let go of the past history that blocks me from allowing others into my more gentle side. Anger is bubbling up. Deal with it.

Today this tells me in simple terms that I need to continue my path of grounded, slow movement, and deal with the anger of my children, my own anger, and keep it moving slow. Just watching Jennie act differently around me because I am moving slower is amazing.

Remember to be flexible.

September 01 - Strength

I have the strength to continue. The energy is moving in my favor. This is a deep strength. It is bringing light to your shadow. Often our greatest strength is in our shadow. Anger can be VERY powerful. And when you bring light to it... well... then you have a powerful energy. Light combined into the strength of shadow creates clarity with your power. Think of it as a balance between the mind and spirit. When working together, there is a congruence, a deep strength. Strength comes from your willingness to take part in the process of life and death. Not being afraid, but engaging life fully.