So the masculine force is the consciousness and the direction. And the feminine is the flow. A woman wants a man who can be direct and know where he's going. So I apply that to Jennie, and I want to be all manly, and know where I'm going, and know how to get there. So here is the little fucking secret. I don't always know how to get there. And I wonder if she knows that, and feels some need to take over and be direct.
BUT... ah BUT... today I heard something that made me understand I wasn't fucking it up the whole time, in fact, I had it RIGHT. Righter than I thought.
So as a feminine partner you don't want to to do too much, because that will be animating your masculine again. The deliciousness is being with someone who always takes you farther than you can take yourself. That's the value of the a partner who knows how to take that leap...
So I'm thinking and have thought, but can I take Jennie farther than she can take herself? I've felt I can. But it's a question I ask. Then David Deida says this (to a woman in the audience) and I think this is the coolest:
And he doesn't know where he's going either... it's just the quality of okay, I know how to jump, jump with me! And you go... well... you know I've seen you jump and fall, I've seen you jump and land okay, but overall I have to say I like where you are jumping! I'm going to jump with you. But you know sometimes you are going to fall with him, because not every jump works. But a good man falls and laughs and says we took a good spill on that! Let's try it again. Instead of like MOMMY!!
That is what I feel to a large degree I bring to my relationship with Jennie. I think we should leap. I DO feel the flow of right action, and my gift to her is to say leap with me. I'm not the wise one, nor the smart one, I don't know where the damn flow will take us, but when it tells us to go, I'm the one who says to her, let's do it, and provides the direction. THAT... I'm good for. :) And I can give that direction unabashedly. I have no fears. I just do it. I am willing to jump where the flow tells me and I want her to come along, and I invite her too. And the flow will lead to her opening up and feeling God and feeling me and being magnified in LOVE. She can't do this by herself. She needs me to direct the jump over the cliff!
That's really cool. And it feels right. She maybe the expert on love but I am the expert on jumping. Here is some more:
Something happens when you are seen, and then known. That does something immediately. So when you are with someone who is seeing your deep heart and knowing you, you only can actually know yourself through someone else's love. So when someone really knows you deeply, suddenly you know yourself in a way that you didn't until that moment. Your birth as light (as a woman identified with her feminine) is to be seen. Your completion, your fulfillment is to be known through and through. But there is more, from seeing, to knowing, to CLAIMING. Because the next step for both of you, from his side, he has an inherent desire to CLAIM that light (you). And light WANTS to be claimed. You want to be seen, you want to be known, to be claimed (for real) and THIS CREATES a yoga inside you. Your light will shine brighter when seen, brighter still when known, and EXPLODE when claimed.
And I know how to get to seeing, knowing and claiming. It's in the flow of right action. So I say JUMP!
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