I recently read a book by Yehuda Berg at the suggestion of Jennie and it was really good. So I go Yehuda's website and he has a little daily Kabbalah comment he sends out. I've always been a fan of quotes, little pick me ups, but by the time I get this experienced in life, most quotes seem little tiny things and not so interesting. Well Yehuda's comments are really cool, they kind of always challenge you. I like that. They kind of support his Kabbalah point of view, but even if you don't believe his point of view, the challenges almost always urge you to live more in the present and take risks and love. Here is today's comment, to let you have an idea of what he says:
Thursday, June 10
Sometimes we feel so overwhelmed with gratitude and appreciation for the wisdom we've been privileged to obtain, yet those channels of wisdom are no longer with us on this plane. Often the wisdom was shared with great risk to life and limb, and most certainly reputation and safety.
So how can we express that gratitude?
Share that wisdom. Today, inspire someone else with it. Be a link in the chain what better way to say 'thanks' for the gift of enlightenment.
That is an interesting comment. I think the Kabbalah wisdom was passed down through time at great risk to many people, and perhaps there are some people out there who are his descendants who suffered greatly for it. He hints at this in his book.
He actually has lots of books. I've only read one. But it is the one I'm going to recommend to you know:
You can get the book here at Amazon: The Power of Kabbalah
I recommend the book, and if you want to dig into it more, go to The Kabbalah Center, where i got the daily quote. www.kabbalah.com.
RAGE
Last night I was filled with utter and horrendous hate and rage. It was interesting. I just was filled with it. It wasn't bad. But it was real. I didn't shirk from it. Last Friday night Jennie read the cards and said we were stuck. Sunday, again, Stuck. She was upset about it Sunday night. I felt it on some loose level, yes we are stuck. Then things flowed better, little bit by bit. But last night all that flow just stopped. It was just a stagnant energy. And it filled me with RAGE. I wanted to get into the DIRT. I wanted URRRRG. I'm sick of being so half assed . It's like we are priviligedge little babies who are learning a little here a little there. I'm not engaging in life fully. It's just sheer horror. I HATE IT. I'm filled with RAGE again as I write this. It's so half assed. I don't want that. I'm not authentic. This little pussying around game is just screwed. I spared no one my rage last night, it thundered through to the heavens and back to the earth. Sometimes you got to get mad. I'm sick of little steps. I'm sick of being disapointed. I had a dream a few nights ago where Jennie was this URG Kali figure, deep and dark and deep. That is the energy I'm going for. Fencing with. Not this pussying around bullshit. I was ENRAGED. Something has to change. I can't keep living in this half assed world. I asked my soul, (interestingly enough at Yehuda Berg's suggestion) to reveal to me my purpose and place in life and it came through last night. Wow. I even bitched at my angels. They are probably upset. I am either increasing the light, living on the edge, or it's just all bullshit. I know stagnation when I see it. It leads to death. I hate it. HATE IT. And hate that getting out of the flow is so accepted by the world, and I sound like such an alarmist when I point out it sucks.
A CARD
I pulled the Knight Wands, and Jennie pulled the Luxury Card:
The Luxury card I know called the Tom Mecham card. He pulled the card the other day and said it absolutely described his last 5 years. The general gist is that you've been living high on the hog, but not actually living responsibly. This is the kind of card that I see of as a warning before something worse comes along, kind of a prelude to a towerish kind of card. The sum of this card is really that abundance creates excess. When we create a little light, we sometimes stop living on our edge, and the light goes out. This is excess. The Kabbalah teaches us to constantly live on your edge. Keep opening. What is more attractive? A woman opening or a woman open? Always a woman opening. David Deida's living on your edge. Keep it there. The universe doesn't stop spinning. The feminine flows. Any block of that flow stops the light. Slows the light. Stagnation. Luxury shows you you did good, you had good, now be careful you don't wallow in it. Go back out and do something different. You'll know what to do because it will feel EDGY. If you feel edgy, you should do it. The Tom Mecham Card!
The Knight of Wands
Aries Aries. You can't get more Aries than this card, and I think it kind of reflects my anger. This card is EVERYTHING I was feeling last night. Let's get the fuck moving. MOVE MOVE MOVE. Amazing that I pulled this card. TRULY AMAZING. Go!
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