June 12th, 2013 - Wednesday - Debauch

June 12th, 2013 - Wednesday - Debauch - Stuck... stuck... stuck... again... so wonderful.

What is the crazy lesson today?  Well what the card says on the surface is that you are heading for a breakdown... you are becoming an escapist... truth is something you aren't willing to see...
Your body could break down.   This is breakdown point.

And what do I say?  Good.  BREAK DOWN . Break completely.  Face the truth.  The truth of something you don't like, that is scary:  Face your fear... and let go.  Stop fighting.

You are going to die...

That is YOU in the coffin.  That is YOU in the mud.  Death is coming.  Best friend Death is coming and he's going to get you.  You can't win.  It's a lose lose situation.  He will get you no matter what you do.

HE is going to win...

Imagine if someone came into your home and assaulted you.  They killed everyone you cared about.  They took all your stuff, and burned it.  Took all your memories, photos, items of connection to this magical earth and the people you loved, then destroyed them.  Utterly.  Then they killed YOU.  You lost.  It's over.

You will be forgotten.

100 years from now no one is going to remember you.

1,000 years from now no one will ever know you lived.

There is no point to anything except the moment... Death is going to win... and we are that man in the coffin, we are that man in the mud.  And the breakdown is coming . The Debauch is telling us to let go...  sink...

Die... before you die.

Today is the day to die.  They are coming to take everything from you.  EVERYTHING.  You won't win.  But knowing that, facing it, embracing it, reaching out and grabbing death in a hug and telling the bony bastard you love him... and look forward to your death, "Bring it on you fucker!" you set yourself free...

Sink... let go... down into the depths and see what is on the other side of breakdown.  See what is on the other side of fear of death...

Because there can only be freedom... that is all there is.... you are free right now.  You are openness. It's your nature.  It's who you are ALREADY.  Let go.  Die.  Be reborn as FREEDOM.