Slow is fast. Don't forget that. When the moment is right in life, you have to move and move quickly. The window is there. GO. JUMP. But don't forget to do it SLOWLY. In your heart, open, your mind wide. This is clearing your chakras, this is breathing deeply. This is assimilating what you have learned. Remember the Truce Card?
Today is the Ace of Swords. This is Michael the angel telling me something. Cutting throught the bullshit. Getting to the point. The Angel of new ideas. So what is Michael telling me? Be open. Breathe down the front, and open up to it. I have to be honest with myself about these things. Think creatively. Think originally. Balance masculine aggression with feminine assertion. It is now time to change. Go for it. Allow the mind ot drea and open to all posibilities! ALL possibilities. Give the dreams inside you a voice.
This is a YES card. YES YES YES. My divine guidance (Michael) will open me to the truth NOW! I am READY.
Jennie got the Ace of Cups. Another YES card. Jennie is a loving person worthy of having love in her life. She is at the beginning of love. Emotions are overflowing and it's time to let them out. Feel the love. Give the love. Open and receive the love. Any type of love. Love of God, love of a man, love of mystery. Look for the experiuence of opening your heart into the great mystery of merging with another. Jennie is feeling the opening in her heart. The Quest is on, for love, and all it takes is OPENING. Love is worth the risk. Go for it this card says.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Monthly Meeting
Jennie and I went to Suzzanne's house last night for our monthly meeting with a group of other psychics. Last night one woman talked about buying a house or not buying a house, and another woman discussed the sistuation of her 85 year old mother's upcoming surgery, and her sister. These were interesting things which we pulled cards for. Then Jennie got to talk and she spoke plainly about her inner frustrations with her current inability to open fully and surrender in sex. BAM! This sparked a 2 hour conversation amongst the girls and me, and it was absolutely great. Suzzanne has had a lot of similar feelings and experiences, not feeling entirely comfortable around her husbands kids, and her need to authentically experience rage to get to sorrow to get to authenticity. Very powerful stuff. I have known Suzzanne for years, and I have to say as she spoke of having to feel rage I saw a window into her for the first time that was REALLY authentic. Not that she isn't authentic, but this was a part she doesn't show everyone. She suggested strongly that Jennie's psychic power is IMMENSE, but that it is tied to her sexuality 100%. And that if she's going to become a psychic and help other people with this flow, she needs to explore the dark sides of her sexuality.
In typical Aries way, I went and bought a bucketload full of tantric sex books and a bucketload full of sex toys. This caused Jennie to feel great anxiety, which of course I didn't intend, though a part of me thinks it is good to feel that anxiety because clearly, this is a place she's bumping up against. She thought I was disapointed with her, but I made it clear to her I wasn't. All I know is that if she's anxious about it, then we need to do it. Makes me remember something I think Erica Jong said in her Fear of Flying book so many years ago, that whenever she realized she was afraid to do something, that indicated to her she needed to go and do it!
This brings up a great question about the topic of sex in the first place. Why is sex taboo? Suzzanne's idea (or the one she espouses) is that the sexual force of men and women is one of the most, if not THE most powerful force in humans. And religions sought to control that. If you control a man or woman's sexual power, you control that person.
But why do we have any sexual hangups in the first place? I saw a book title that said, America's War on Sexuality. As if this CULTURE attacks sex. Does it? I think the church's have a good point on some level. I remember hearing someone say, God gave you those desires, but the idea is to control them and use them for the right purpose.
Well some people might say that's BS. But I don't. Why? Because David Deida says the exact same thing. Men have an oinking desire to have sex. Does that mean they should? No! The higher levels of maturity and being a superior man are to NOT have sex, not ejaculate all the time. Religion suggests we keep it in our pants, until the right time.
I'm not defending religion, or even being a proponent of it. I'm just talking about the concept of sexuality in our culture, which I'm sure there have been a million trees cut and turned into paper for the numerous books written on the subject. There is a part of us all that seems to have sexual hangups. All of us do. If just the hangup of not performing as well as we want.
So David Deida, Suzzanne Wagner, and many other people in the Tantric Community believe that sex is a doorway to spirituality, to finding GOD. Is this true? If we were scientists, I would say we would have to begin a long experimentation to find out. But we are also spiritualists, and we can touch our spirit, our intuition, and feel... that the answer is yes. On some level, we store all of our hurt, our wounds, our problems IN sex, and so clearing that out through sex is a way to healing, but it seems to be more than that.
Let's pull a card for the day!
TRUCE!
It's a sword card. Is it a yes or no card? It is a Maybe card.
This card is calm. Coming back to center. Integration. My parts are coming to center. I've learned some stuff, now is the time that learning will COMBINE with me. This means it's going into my tissue, my DNA, that I'm GETTING IT.
This card also speaks to letting SORROW run through me. IF you are sorrow filled, look within. That is the answer to solving sorrow. Why are you sorry? Something inside.
So if you have something happening to you, a struggle, and you want to fight it, you are going to create suffering. Here is the truce card. Come a truce with YOURSELF, and accept that this is the path. Letting go of the attachment, you come to integrate the learning.
Okay, that's interesting. Today is a day of TRUCE!
On another topic, though similar to what we have been talking about, is that Ejaculation should be converted or consciously chosen. I have felt when present with my woman (Jennie) that unbounded bliss of her feminine force. This is encompassing, and always the struggle for the man is to either die into it, or live through it. And whenever I come, it's just a short little spurt of release. It is... a little death, as the french call it. And here is the weird thing. As a man, guess what I've just done? I think about it and feel through it after it happens and the feeling is almost ALWAYS death. It's over, and my woman has SLAIN me. I'm done. I'm out. I've achieved that male consciousness of bliss, of empty void.
Think about this. If a woman has this powerful force, this feminine life force, and as a man I'm attracted to it to it, then what do I want to do with it? Well, a moth is attracted to the flame. They go and die. And a man can do the same thing. I can fuck Jennie with all my heart, but if I lose myself in her, then what am I doing? Then I'm just an animal. A moth to the flame. She spreads her legs, and I'm in like that. Bam. Rutting and fucking. And it's about me. I'm going to get something. Which is not about SHARING. Not about Giving.
Let's back up a second. What is life about? It's about giving. I teach my kids this. This is the lesson of all lessons. Love and give love. What do they say in Moulin Rouge? The greatest gift you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return. The great lesson of that movie is that Christian gives this love, and is loved truly in return, and that's the ultimate goal of that. Sure she dies, but so what. He has given everything to her and she has given everything back.
Yes, I know a sidetrack there. So when I'm making love to Jennie, if I'm not present, then where am I? It's a good question. And that is something the feminine feels, notices, immediately. Suzzane likes to call it mastery of subtle energy. The feminine is life force, but it has some characteristics. It wants to be praised. It wants to be noticed. The life force wants the focus and attention of those around it. Not just men, or woman, but everything. It wants the attention.
Jennie's feminine core wants my UNDIVIDED attention. So that means two things pertinent to this discussion. One she doesn't want me thinking of other things, like my own fantasy, or my own ejaculation. She wants me focused on her. FUCKING HER. And second, she doesn't want me to LOSE myself in here. If she can take me in, and kill me, what good am I to her?
She can't get there by herself, she needs a man's masculine energy to make her surrender, and take her to GOD. But how do you do that if my energy is focused on something else? I can't. And the feminine is good at testing the masculine. It wants CONSTANT praise and attention. It's not always going to get it, but it wants it. And so she tests. I've seen her do it all the time.
And so when I saw consciously choose ejaculation, or convert it, this is what I mean. Through life I have always felt women seek to kill me. They want my dick limp, my life force gone, and they try and pull that from me. Why? I think it's to test me. Yes there are women who want to pleasure me. And that's great. They get their turn to focus on me and bring me somewhere I can't go by myself. But that's not the nature of the feminine. Jennie wants to be taken, she's not too interested in taking me anywhere. And she tests me, like all women have before, in some way or another. And when I do NOT come, and focus on her, then she has an easier time surrendering into life force.
It is amazing how many times men can learn this lesson over and over. It's so easy to get lost in sex, and having your orgasm. And the tougher part, which is just like God smiling and laughing at you, is that the MORE the woman opens, the more you want to lose yourself in her! And you can't. You stay present. I am the rock in the storm. I stand in the center of Jennie's feminine core, insider her darkness, and just stand here. I'm just THERE. I don't get lost. I don't die in it. I LIVE THROUGH.
How do you think I'm going to LIVE through dying? When I die, My soul could get lost in desires like sex, drugs, alcohol, food, whatever. There are spirits trapped on this plane. Worried about things. But if I want to LIVE through dying, I have to be clear, present. When I die, and this body shucks it's mortal coil, I stand firm, I watch the coming light, and open to the experience of dying FULLY, but with my attention fully focused. I don't lose myself.
And so when I die, I will still be me, and travel onto the next plane of existence, where there will be more and different challengs to tackle.
In typical Aries way, I went and bought a bucketload full of tantric sex books and a bucketload full of sex toys. This caused Jennie to feel great anxiety, which of course I didn't intend, though a part of me thinks it is good to feel that anxiety because clearly, this is a place she's bumping up against. She thought I was disapointed with her, but I made it clear to her I wasn't. All I know is that if she's anxious about it, then we need to do it. Makes me remember something I think Erica Jong said in her Fear of Flying book so many years ago, that whenever she realized she was afraid to do something, that indicated to her she needed to go and do it!
This brings up a great question about the topic of sex in the first place. Why is sex taboo? Suzzanne's idea (or the one she espouses) is that the sexual force of men and women is one of the most, if not THE most powerful force in humans. And religions sought to control that. If you control a man or woman's sexual power, you control that person.
But why do we have any sexual hangups in the first place? I saw a book title that said, America's War on Sexuality. As if this CULTURE attacks sex. Does it? I think the church's have a good point on some level. I remember hearing someone say, God gave you those desires, but the idea is to control them and use them for the right purpose.
Well some people might say that's BS. But I don't. Why? Because David Deida says the exact same thing. Men have an oinking desire to have sex. Does that mean they should? No! The higher levels of maturity and being a superior man are to NOT have sex, not ejaculate all the time. Religion suggests we keep it in our pants, until the right time.
I'm not defending religion, or even being a proponent of it. I'm just talking about the concept of sexuality in our culture, which I'm sure there have been a million trees cut and turned into paper for the numerous books written on the subject. There is a part of us all that seems to have sexual hangups. All of us do. If just the hangup of not performing as well as we want.
So David Deida, Suzzanne Wagner, and many other people in the Tantric Community believe that sex is a doorway to spirituality, to finding GOD. Is this true? If we were scientists, I would say we would have to begin a long experimentation to find out. But we are also spiritualists, and we can touch our spirit, our intuition, and feel... that the answer is yes. On some level, we store all of our hurt, our wounds, our problems IN sex, and so clearing that out through sex is a way to healing, but it seems to be more than that.
Let's pull a card for the day!
TRUCE!
It's a sword card. Is it a yes or no card? It is a Maybe card.
This card is calm. Coming back to center. Integration. My parts are coming to center. I've learned some stuff, now is the time that learning will COMBINE with me. This means it's going into my tissue, my DNA, that I'm GETTING IT.
This card also speaks to letting SORROW run through me. IF you are sorrow filled, look within. That is the answer to solving sorrow. Why are you sorry? Something inside.
So if you have something happening to you, a struggle, and you want to fight it, you are going to create suffering. Here is the truce card. Come a truce with YOURSELF, and accept that this is the path. Letting go of the attachment, you come to integrate the learning.
Okay, that's interesting. Today is a day of TRUCE!
On another topic, though similar to what we have been talking about, is that Ejaculation should be converted or consciously chosen. I have felt when present with my woman (Jennie) that unbounded bliss of her feminine force. This is encompassing, and always the struggle for the man is to either die into it, or live through it. And whenever I come, it's just a short little spurt of release. It is... a little death, as the french call it. And here is the weird thing. As a man, guess what I've just done? I think about it and feel through it after it happens and the feeling is almost ALWAYS death. It's over, and my woman has SLAIN me. I'm done. I'm out. I've achieved that male consciousness of bliss, of empty void.
Think about this. If a woman has this powerful force, this feminine life force, and as a man I'm attracted to it to it, then what do I want to do with it? Well, a moth is attracted to the flame. They go and die. And a man can do the same thing. I can fuck Jennie with all my heart, but if I lose myself in her, then what am I doing? Then I'm just an animal. A moth to the flame. She spreads her legs, and I'm in like that. Bam. Rutting and fucking. And it's about me. I'm going to get something. Which is not about SHARING. Not about Giving.
Let's back up a second. What is life about? It's about giving. I teach my kids this. This is the lesson of all lessons. Love and give love. What do they say in Moulin Rouge? The greatest gift you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return. The great lesson of that movie is that Christian gives this love, and is loved truly in return, and that's the ultimate goal of that. Sure she dies, but so what. He has given everything to her and she has given everything back.
Yes, I know a sidetrack there. So when I'm making love to Jennie, if I'm not present, then where am I? It's a good question. And that is something the feminine feels, notices, immediately. Suzzane likes to call it mastery of subtle energy. The feminine is life force, but it has some characteristics. It wants to be praised. It wants to be noticed. The life force wants the focus and attention of those around it. Not just men, or woman, but everything. It wants the attention.
Jennie's feminine core wants my UNDIVIDED attention. So that means two things pertinent to this discussion. One she doesn't want me thinking of other things, like my own fantasy, or my own ejaculation. She wants me focused on her. FUCKING HER. And second, she doesn't want me to LOSE myself in here. If she can take me in, and kill me, what good am I to her?
She can't get there by herself, she needs a man's masculine energy to make her surrender, and take her to GOD. But how do you do that if my energy is focused on something else? I can't. And the feminine is good at testing the masculine. It wants CONSTANT praise and attention. It's not always going to get it, but it wants it. And so she tests. I've seen her do it all the time.
And so when I saw consciously choose ejaculation, or convert it, this is what I mean. Through life I have always felt women seek to kill me. They want my dick limp, my life force gone, and they try and pull that from me. Why? I think it's to test me. Yes there are women who want to pleasure me. And that's great. They get their turn to focus on me and bring me somewhere I can't go by myself. But that's not the nature of the feminine. Jennie wants to be taken, she's not too interested in taking me anywhere. And she tests me, like all women have before, in some way or another. And when I do NOT come, and focus on her, then she has an easier time surrendering into life force.
It is amazing how many times men can learn this lesson over and over. It's so easy to get lost in sex, and having your orgasm. And the tougher part, which is just like God smiling and laughing at you, is that the MORE the woman opens, the more you want to lose yourself in her! And you can't. You stay present. I am the rock in the storm. I stand in the center of Jennie's feminine core, insider her darkness, and just stand here. I'm just THERE. I don't get lost. I don't die in it. I LIVE THROUGH.
How do you think I'm going to LIVE through dying? When I die, My soul could get lost in desires like sex, drugs, alcohol, food, whatever. There are spirits trapped on this plane. Worried about things. But if I want to LIVE through dying, I have to be clear, present. When I die, and this body shucks it's mortal coil, I stand firm, I watch the coming light, and open to the experience of dying FULLY, but with my attention fully focused. I don't lose myself.
And so when I die, I will still be me, and travel onto the next plane of existence, where there will be more and different challengs to tackle.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Fortune Card
Today after my Feminine energy blast I went and had lunch with Jennie! That was really nice to see her feeling better from being sick. I then came back and pulled the Fortune CARD. UPSIDE DOWN.
This is one of the Trumps, 10th one actually. Let's see what it says:
Angels of Change and Challenge!
This is funny because as you focus on the feminine, that energy source in the universe IS change. It's just always changing. And for the masculine to GET it is to ACCEPT CHANGE. Nothing is going to stay the same. In 100 years we will be dead. In 10 years, I'll be older and slower. I might be wiser, but I will change. All my relationships are doomed to end in death at some point. My friends, my pets, my lover, my children. All of us will be separated by death and change some day. (We might also be reunited by death, but that's another story!).
It is time to make a decision. Change is NOW. Now is the time to DO IT. A leap of faith! This might even be that Indiana Jones time! Emotionally this is where creativity comes to life. Energy is in alignment with matter. Spiritually it is to allow MAGIC TO HAPPEN and CHANGE YOUR LIFE. LET IT HAPPEN! It's flowing so stop fighting it. Time to GO WITH THE FLOW.
I am willing to choose new experiences! I'm ready to get off the wheel I've been spinning on for so long, and see where the new one leads me. Off on to another adventure! Risk! Taking! Go for it!
BUT... the card was reversed... My timing.. might be a little off. Risk might be too high! I might not have the skills I think I possess! This could be true! It might be about going for a quick fix, so I think you should take your time and relax into it. Stop and check to see if doing this activity is to prove a point instead of what is right.
Be careful about being decieved by others as well . Know your boundaries!
All great things require some risk. Create a strategy, plan it out, then jump. I can't know all the outcomes! If I did life would be boring.
Take my television away and rediscover how much tie I really have when not trying to escape from reality. Spend time with Jennie tonight just being with her directly, instead of indirectly watching Tv.
This is one of the Trumps, 10th one actually. Let's see what it says:
Angels of Change and Challenge!
This is funny because as you focus on the feminine, that energy source in the universe IS change. It's just always changing. And for the masculine to GET it is to ACCEPT CHANGE. Nothing is going to stay the same. In 100 years we will be dead. In 10 years, I'll be older and slower. I might be wiser, but I will change. All my relationships are doomed to end in death at some point. My friends, my pets, my lover, my children. All of us will be separated by death and change some day. (We might also be reunited by death, but that's another story!).
It is time to make a decision. Change is NOW. Now is the time to DO IT. A leap of faith! This might even be that Indiana Jones time! Emotionally this is where creativity comes to life. Energy is in alignment with matter. Spiritually it is to allow MAGIC TO HAPPEN and CHANGE YOUR LIFE. LET IT HAPPEN! It's flowing so stop fighting it. Time to GO WITH THE FLOW.
I am willing to choose new experiences! I'm ready to get off the wheel I've been spinning on for so long, and see where the new one leads me. Off on to another adventure! Risk! Taking! Go for it!
BUT... the card was reversed... My timing.. might be a little off. Risk might be too high! I might not have the skills I think I possess! This could be true! It might be about going for a quick fix, so I think you should take your time and relax into it. Stop and check to see if doing this activity is to prove a point instead of what is right.
Be careful about being decieved by others as well . Know your boundaries!
All great things require some risk. Create a strategy, plan it out, then jump. I can't know all the outcomes! If I did life would be boring.
Take my television away and rediscover how much tie I really have when not trying to escape from reality. Spend time with Jennie tonight just being with her directly, instead of indirectly watching Tv.
Feminine Energy
Today I was feeling a bit tired, working along, you know, focused on work, getting things done, when some emails come in. I've had my email address for 15 years now and get my fair share of junk. Playboy always sends me advertizements, and there was one that came in today with your usual bevy of blond girls and their boobs. But as I looked at it briefly, something became interestingly apparent. A few of the girls were just naked girls, not really anything special. But a few of them were filled with FEMININE energy. It was amazing. It had absolutely NOTHING to do with their looks. Just their energy. So I decided to try and experiment. I let the energy WASH over me, and HOLY SHIT, it just filled me up. I just spent a lot of time listening to Suzzanne teach about Sex and Love, and she's said it many times, and David Deida says it many times.... but men like women for their RADIANCE. Their radiant power of light! I think I have known this since I was a child, but I didn't always understand it. For instance, I think the basic male tendancy is to confuse that radiance for sex. They think it means sex. They hunt women for sex, but what they REALLY want deep down is the radiance of lifeforce, of the feminine. Now you can talk about all this shit all you want, but let me tell you when you open up and FEEL it, then you know it's true. There is an energy in the feminine.
Jennie is a deep feminine creature, and she has this POWER that I can just feel. But she keeps it closed so much, that it's often hidden. It's weird, because this energy IS WHAT I WANT FROM HER, and yet she keeps it so hidden. The path for me is to try and open her to that, so she can feel it, and DO it as well.
I THINK... that this is the path to God. Or at least the Goddess. I grew up thinking about God as a Male Energy. And then later as I got older I thought about Heavenly Mother (as the Mormons call her). And at times I would pray to her, and it seemed there were times when she was more responsive than Heavenly Father.
Lately, I am evolving through feeling open, this new feeling. I think there ARE two God Forces. God, who works through the masculine consciousness, the focus, and Heavenly Mother, who works through the power of life and death, the change. I think this is obvious to some cultures, and people, who have worshipped the feminine mother goddess, but coming from a Male dominated Christian Religion culture as I have, it's kind of NEW. But I've discovered it on my own, as I FEEL the mother goddess energy.
This is all very exctiting to me, and the power of the feminine, to infuse me and fill me with light. I think this is kind of the SUM of what Suzzanne was talking to us about this weekend. And yes I should obviously tell you more about that when I get time. To the women the message was: You have the l ight, GIVE IT TO YOUR MAN. And to the man, the message was FOCUS ON YOUR WOMAN.
Here is another thought, and I feel this coming through my life at almost all times. Let me tell you this is an EXPERIENCE thought, not just a philosophical thought. When I focus on a woman, I have a lot of power. That masculine power focuses. BUT... my mistake throughout my later life, (not so much when I was young, because then I just wanted sex, and didn't think about opening a woman), was to focus on the woman, and then... bring that power to bear, open her up and divinely lavish myself in her feminine energy.... and then go do something else.
Yep... go do something else. The masculine has a mission, something else in his life. Jennie needs to balance me by BRINGING ME BACK TO FOCUS on the feminine, through the use of her energy, her body, and her sexuality. BRING ME BACK. Because as a man, I just tend to drift into other focus. My mission. Which is great except that the power source for my mission is my woman!!!! And when I ignore her, take the focus off her... she shuts down. If the Jennie, the radiant light of my life, is ignored, if she is not seen, no praised, not lavished and loved and worshipped, she shuts down. And my light goes away.
This explains to me so many people's relationships. Let me describe this path in bullets!
We just watched a movie called Couples Retreat. In it one of the men, played by John Favroue, says something like this: "How can you love one woman all your life? You get bored! You need more light!"
The problem is, in the movie, he stopped focusing on his woman, and so she dimmed her light. It wasns't gone, it just wasn't shinning for him. This energetic expression plays out all the time in relationships.
The results, as far as I can see them are usually like this. Either man searches elsewhere for woman who will give him light, or woman searches elsewhere for man who will focus on her, or both turn to life and bury themselves into a sexless friendship that just chugs along but doesn't fulfill either of them. This 'friendship' relationship works when men are busy with career and woman are busy with kids.
Hm... interesting thoughts. Feminine energy. What a boost! What a blast! What a beautiful thing! I must say, this is cool to realize and feel.
Jennie is a deep feminine creature, and she has this POWER that I can just feel. But she keeps it closed so much, that it's often hidden. It's weird, because this energy IS WHAT I WANT FROM HER, and yet she keeps it so hidden. The path for me is to try and open her to that, so she can feel it, and DO it as well.
I THINK... that this is the path to God. Or at least the Goddess. I grew up thinking about God as a Male Energy. And then later as I got older I thought about Heavenly Mother (as the Mormons call her). And at times I would pray to her, and it seemed there were times when she was more responsive than Heavenly Father.
Lately, I am evolving through feeling open, this new feeling. I think there ARE two God Forces. God, who works through the masculine consciousness, the focus, and Heavenly Mother, who works through the power of life and death, the change. I think this is obvious to some cultures, and people, who have worshipped the feminine mother goddess, but coming from a Male dominated Christian Religion culture as I have, it's kind of NEW. But I've discovered it on my own, as I FEEL the mother goddess energy.
This is all very exctiting to me, and the power of the feminine, to infuse me and fill me with light. I think this is kind of the SUM of what Suzzanne was talking to us about this weekend. And yes I should obviously tell you more about that when I get time. To the women the message was: You have the l ight, GIVE IT TO YOUR MAN. And to the man, the message was FOCUS ON YOUR WOMAN.
Here is another thought, and I feel this coming through my life at almost all times. Let me tell you this is an EXPERIENCE thought, not just a philosophical thought. When I focus on a woman, I have a lot of power. That masculine power focuses. BUT... my mistake throughout my later life, (not so much when I was young, because then I just wanted sex, and didn't think about opening a woman), was to focus on the woman, and then... bring that power to bear, open her up and divinely lavish myself in her feminine energy.... and then go do something else.
Yep... go do something else. The masculine has a mission, something else in his life. Jennie needs to balance me by BRINGING ME BACK TO FOCUS on the feminine, through the use of her energy, her body, and her sexuality. BRING ME BACK. Because as a man, I just tend to drift into other focus. My mission. Which is great except that the power source for my mission is my woman!!!! And when I ignore her, take the focus off her... she shuts down. If the Jennie, the radiant light of my life, is ignored, if she is not seen, no praised, not lavished and loved and worshipped, she shuts down. And my light goes away.
This explains to me so many people's relationships. Let me describe this path in bullets!
- Man sees woman, with radiant light.
- Man focuses on woman, wants her, brings his masculine to the focus
- Woman likes that, and turns on her light for him.
- They get together
- Man, now filled, turns his focus elsewhere.
- Woman, now not noticed, dims her light
- Man, realizes the light is dim, and wants more light WITHOUT FOCUSING ON THE WOMAN.
- Man turns to other women for sources of energy or cocoons away from her.
We just watched a movie called Couples Retreat. In it one of the men, played by John Favroue, says something like this: "How can you love one woman all your life? You get bored! You need more light!"
The problem is, in the movie, he stopped focusing on his woman, and so she dimmed her light. It wasns't gone, it just wasn't shinning for him. This energetic expression plays out all the time in relationships.
The results, as far as I can see them are usually like this. Either man searches elsewhere for woman who will give him light, or woman searches elsewhere for man who will focus on her, or both turn to life and bury themselves into a sexless friendship that just chugs along but doesn't fulfill either of them. This 'friendship' relationship works when men are busy with career and woman are busy with kids.
Hm... interesting thoughts. Feminine energy. What a boost! What a blast! What a beautiful thing! I must say, this is cool to realize and feel.
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