January 24th, 2010

Today's Card was the Knight of Cups. I'm on my quest! It is weird, because today I have spent some time trying to get in touch with my Masculine Side and find out what I really want to do with my life. Connection. That's part of it, but today it wasn't clear. Jennie pulled a few cards for me from a couple other decks, and I got Rhianna and Melchizedek. Cool stuff.

Jennie has been really off recently. She's just not tapping into her feminine, and when I tell her she isn't doing this, she gets even more pissed at me. I try to help, but I'm just not helping right now. She needs to figure this out by herself I guess. She pulled the Strife card. It is hard to get a woman to get into her feminine, when she knows she's not there and needs to, but won't let me help! Being independent is a great thing, but what good am I if she won't let me touch her and take her and ravish her? She puts too much value in fighting, and less in surrendering. But then as Suzanne said, if she wilted like a flower and just surrendered without a fight, it might not be so fun!

Still, it pisses me off. She needs to surrender, but in her Virgo mind it has to be HER idea. What good is surrendering if it's YOUR idea? (GRIN)

I finally finished The Way of the Superior Man by David Deida today. I know, I've been reading it for years, but I never read the final chapter, Chapter 51. It was an amazing chapter. It really challenges me, just like everything else he writes. I'm always overwhelmed by this book. It's like a great new level. There will be other levels above it, but I can tell you it's new to me now and it fills me with challenge. Makes me stiffen up and say FUCK YEAH!

:)

Okay, that is my Sunday. Took some quiet time in a walk and found some strength, now I'm watching football wasting my life.